Realised again how Hubs (and his family) had been very supportive to me. Not only did he support me with (and respected) my decisions, but he also never forced me to do anything that I didn’t want to do nor forced me to do something that I wasn’t ready yet. True that my being spoiled is putting me in tight spots nowadays because I still can’t speak Nihongo. But the fault lies with me, I had been very lax and had been very dependent. So dependent that I still ask Hubs when to put out which garbage because our guide table is in Japanese. Hence as an act of being independent, when we went to the ward office earlier for day care application, I also asked for an English copy of the garbage collection schedule (see how DETAILED the segregation is!!).

I know this is just a very simple act. But I can’t tell you enough how liberating it is to be in control even when it’s just as simple as knowing the detailed segregation of garbage and when to throw it out.

I have to step up. Have to speed things up. Have to make things a little easier for Hubs.

My daughter would hopefully be starting day care by middle of next year and I know things will be more difficult for me/us simply because I can’t speak the language. I can’t be lax anymore. True it’s kind of a tall order, wanting to be able to speak the language by next year. But I have to.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me – Philippians 4:13