Kilig

I usually get kilig in the most unromantic reasons.

When I’m praised at work.

When my work is recognized in the most unexpected way.

When I see someone in high position/very experienced engineer applying the procedures I put in place.

When I created something that was really marvelous.

Today, out of the blue, the Piping Lead of my current project (who was in constant business trip for the past four months that I haven’t seen him in person) suddenly paid me a visit on my desk. Just to say hi and commend me on my efforts thus far.

What made me kilig though was what he revealed: he said he’s been wanting to work with me for the longest time now. Said he’s heard about me in other projects and was part of a team that worked with me but that he wasn’t my direct contact. Said he appreciated the efforts I’m putting.

Kilig. To the bones. Especially since he said it when people around my work area were in their seats and silently working.

Kilig.

I can love myself better than you can

My oldest mentor finally had to bid the Company goodbye. So we held several special programs for him. On one instance, I was tasked to buy flowers. Before the program, I had to attend several meetings so my seat mates could just see the flowers near my desk but couldn’t ask me from whom it was.

Then during the Leads’ meeting, finally my seatmate had the chance: who gave you flowers?

My instant reply: I bought for myself .

The look on his face was priceless. Same as the look the other male colleagues in the meeting room had (I was the only female Lead). They couldn’t fathom that a lady would buy herself flowers.

My joke was so satisfying I laughed for some time before I cleared it up. That it was for the oldest member in our division who’s retiring.

I can buy myself flowers.

Woman, Never underestimate yourself

This first workweek of the year has been very stressful. And well actually, I’ve made quite a lot of people get stressed as well because of the shift I made.

I was here and there trying to resolve my access issues yet I was still dutiful in fulfilling my tasks for the different projects I’m with.

I was so stressed and spaced out and distracted in that when we had the leads’ meeting to brainstorm on potential cost reduction ideas, I thought that I (the only woman in the room) have no additional ideas to bring to the table. In truth, I went to the meeting to relax from the stress of catching up and resolving issues.

I tried to stay silent while the men talked.

Then the project lead asked for my opinion.

And as usual, I just let myself go with the flow of talking and speaking my mind.

Later, when the Lead summarized our ideas complete with his and Deputy Lead’s initial sift prior to sending to PMT, I was very surprised to see that actually, out of the 15 cost down ideas listed, ALL 4 of my ideas were 4 of the only 6 ideas that were feasible for cost down.

So girl. Remember. Never underestimate yourself.